My Little Life |
Nanny. Twenty years young. Best Friend. Sister. Daughter. Just a simple girl trying to make it through a crazy life with my family, my friends, and Jesus by my side. Welcome to it. |
As soon as you think it’s over. As soon as you’re ready to throw in the towel or lift up your white flag in surrender. That moment when you feel that you can’t go on. As soon as you think you’ve hit the bottom. God shows you a glimmer of hope to make it through.
My glimmer of hope was the opportunity to return to work at Frontier Ranch this summer. That phone call could not have come at a better time. I was feeling hopeless, lost, confused, and abandon. I cried tears of joy knowing that I would returning to my home away from home.
I found myself constantly asking where God could be in all of this mess. Why was he allowing for everything to come crashing down? I still do not know the answer to that, but I know that there is hope in my future. I had doors slammed in my face and had felt the sting of rejection, but I have found that no matter how many doors God closes he always leaves the right door open. His plan may not have been what you wanted it to be, but it’s the best plan possible. And when that plan becomes slowly revealed you will feel an overwhelming sense of joy and strength to go on. Do not fret over a closed door, soon your glimmer of hope will show up at the moment you need it most.
Do not question the plans that he has for your life. God has you right where he wants you… safe in his arms of love. He will carry you through to the end.
Each year we grow another year older; leaving another year behind. But do we really leave it behind? When we move from ten to eleven do we really just forget about age ten and leave all of our ten year old ways behind us? Some may think so. Rather, I believe, that our ages stack. Therefore, if you are twenty you are also one, two, three, four, five… and so on. A twenty year old can’t act twenty all the time. When you cry on your mothers shoulder you are more five than twenty. Or when you get your heartbroken it’s more like your sixteen and back in high school. What about when you are feeling left out? Isn’t that more of age ten than twenty? Or what about times when your six because you accidentally shot milk out your nose because you were laughing too hard at the dinner table? You see, as we go through life we gain experience and behavior from every age. As we move on in life we carry those ages with us because some times you do need to cry on your mother’s shoulder or laugh so hard that milk shoots out your nose.
It feels like life is quickly passing me by
But when I stop and look up at the night sky
I come to realize
With my human eyes
How small I am
In comparison to Him
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God I know that you are in control
And in your grand story I only play a small role
For the battle has already been won
When you sent your only Son
To live, to die, to rise on the third day
This truth I am reminded as my problems fade away
The beauty of simplicity.
Between all the books and the classes and the homework don’t forgot to tale a break && fly on the wings of your dreams <3
Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try and follow where they lead.
-Louisa May Alcott-
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